[ Joey Cape-My American Heart-NeverShoutNever Lyrics ]

[On the outside- Joey Cape and Tony Sly]
I'll see you on the outside and we'll never be the same
after all that's happened what is it that we've gained?
well I've made mistakes before and never lived them down
after all you've done for me I'm bound (don't say another word)

To see you on the outside where we can both be sane
(you're speaking for yourself)
I'm bleeding on the inside a place you might have been
but now I know I'll (never be the same)

Well I heard you got a place and it's far away from here
reality has sunken in now confirming all my fears
I'm not gonna track you down and it's too late to stop
thinking 'bout the time that we have lost (I'm happy without you)

I'm trying to forget you and everything we had
(we didn't stand a chance)
we're miserable and it's true I haven't learned a thing
but now I know I'll trust no one else

There was a time when we were back and forth, it wasn't easy
I guess that we're back where we belong
one thing is for sure, it wasn't strong

I'll see you on the outside where we can both feel shame
(you've never been more right)
I'm dying on the inside, you're never coming back
and now I know whatever we go through
my heart is stuck with you


[Not your saviour - Joey Cape and Tony Sly]
Unlucky seventeen, already handed plans for the future
Glamour obsessed, shown how to dress, and told how to think
And I don't have a job, but I can show you how to be a slob
So many days, wasted and glazed
Sometimes I laugh aloud as I think about,
You asking me Please can you help?
Can't help my self

I'm not your savior, I'm not who you want me to be
A cowardly mistake I've made so many times before, refusing to break
Cut my losses ties them with you, like a good boy I'll pretend
And promise not to do it again

Do you remember when, life was so simple and permanent?
Everyone's changed, Everyone's cool, Everyone sucks
But I can't seem to complain, Exciting and new is just not there
You're getting scared

I'm not your savior, never thought I was anyway
I'm a void with empty promises that backs out late
Never said I'd change, taking back the words that we spoke
Like a fuel tank running dry, you'll believe it when I choke


[The Shake - My American Heart]
Oh, the brilliant mistakes that you seem to make always push me away.
and now you're steppin' on my feet, steppin' on my feet,
cause you were never on my side.

so i'll throw my thoughts into the sea,
where no one will ever find,
and your marvelous episodes of pain will very soon be mine.

i can't seem to shake this awful feeling,
you want, you want, you want me out,
and i can't believe.

they say a mind is a terrible thing to waste,
what good is mine if i'm locked up in a cage?
i was hoping you could help me out of here,
so i could finally disappear.

i'll throw my thoughts into the sea,
where no one will ever find.

i can't seem to shake this awful feeling.
you want, you want, you want me out,
and i can't seem to...
i can't seem to shake this awful feeling.
you want, you want, you want me out,
and i can't believe.

so i'll throw my thoughts into the sea,
where no one will ever find.
and your marvelous episodes of pain,
will very soon be mine.

i can't seem to shake this awful feeling,
you want, you want, you want me out.
and i can't seem to...
i can't seem to shake this awful feeling.
you want, you want, you want me out...
and i can't believe.
and i can't believe.


[Trouble - NeverShoutNever!]
I'm in trouble
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this girl
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl

But even worse
I can't stop calling her
She's all I want and more
I mean damn
What's not to adore?

I've been playing too much games
I, I've been listening to jazz
I called so many times
I swear she's going mad
And that cellular will be the death of us
I swear, I swear

And oh
O-oh, o-oh, o-ooh
Ooooh

I'm running my mouth
Just like I got her
But I surely don't

Because she's so
O-oh, o-oh, o-ooh
Rock 'n roll
And out of my league
Is she out of my league?
Let's hope not

I'm in trouble
I'm so cliché
See that word just wears me out
Makes me feel like just another boy
To laugh and joke about

But even worse
I can't stop calling her
I love to hear that voice
And honestly
I'm left with no choice

I've been playing too much games
I, I've been listening to jazz
I called so many times
I swear she's going mad
And that cellular will be the death of us
I swear, I swear

And oh
O-oh, o-oh, o-ooh
Ooooh

I'm running my mouth
Just like I got her
But I surely don't

Because she's so
O-oh, o-oh, o-ooh
Rock 'n roll
And out of my league
Is she out of my league?
Let's hope not

And oh
O-oh, o-oh, o-ooh
Ooooh, oooh

[ Hmmhh.. ]

Masih di kamar saya. Saya liat jam, udah jam 4, hampir stengah 5. Belum cukup cape buat modal saya tidur. Masih ngedengerin lagu2 dari winamp yang playlist nya udah saya susun sedemikian rupa. Masih berusaha ngerjain kerjaan yang belum bisa selesai. Saya lagi ga mood kerja. Mood saya lagi kacau. Nampak ga jelas di depan monitor. Hmmh..lebih baik balik lagi ke tempat tidur. Tarik selimut. Berharap ngantuk datang. Heu.. 

[ Lily Allen Lyrics ]

[Chinese - Lily Allen]

I see you from the sky
And I wonder how long it will take me to get home
I wait for an hour or so at the carousel
I have a cigarette to pass the time
Cause the traffic's hell

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

You wipe the tears from my eye
And you say that all that it takes is a phone call
I cry at the thought of being alone and then
I wonder how long it will take til I'm home again

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

I know it doesn't seem so fair
But I'll send you a postcard when I get there

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

[ All Time Low and Secondhand Serenade Lyrics ]

[Stay Close, Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade]

I'm staring at the glass in front of me, 
is it half empty of our wins or have i ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish, 
I know I've been foolish, 
but look through that 
and you will see, 
I'll do better, I know, 
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone, 
don't tell me I will make it on my own, 
don't leave me tonight, 
this heart of stone will sing till it dies 
if you leave me tonight. 

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping, 
I listen to your breathing, 
amazed how I somehow managed to 
sweep you off your feet girl, 
your perfect little feet girl 
I took for granted what you do. 
But I'll do better, I know 
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone, 
don't tell me I will make it on my own, 
don't leave me tonight, 
this heart of stone will sing till it dies 
if you leave me tonight. 

And don't you know my heart is open, oh, 
it's putting up the fight, 
and I've got this feeling, 
that everything's alright, 
and don't you see, 
I'm not the only one for you 
but you're the only one for me. 

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone,

(stay)If you leave me tonight,
(close) I'll wake up alone, 
(don't)don't tell me I will 
(go)make it on my own, 
(stay)don't leave me tonight, 
(close)this heart of stone
(don't) will sing till it dies 
(go)if you leave me tonight. 
Don't leave me tonight

[Remembering Sunday - All Time Low]

Woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Starting making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning out into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place is familiar to him
She pulls on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be

[Juliet Simms:]
I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak, but you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt; now the rain is
Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
So many thousands of feet off the ground
I'm over you now I'm at home in the clouds
Towering over your head

[Alex Gaskarth:]
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home

[Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade]

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

SAYA HANYA MAKHLUK JELEK GENDUT TANPA OTAK.

[ Kembali Merasa Gagal ]

Saya ga nyangka stelah hari ini saya ngalamin semua kejadian yang bikin saya lega. Saya kembali ngerasain rasa ga enak. Perasaan gagal. Entah berapa kali saya ngerasain hal ini. Saya hanya berbuat sesuatu yang baik untuk smua, bukan buat saya aja, tapi buat orang di sekitar saya. Tapi saya salah. Apa yang saya perbuat masih salah, jauh dari benar. Saya gagal lagi. Harus apa saya buktiin kalo saya serius? Harus saya nangis? Harus saya nangis sampe saya ga bisa tahan rasa sakit di kepala saya? Harus saya melukai diri sendiri? Saya sudah cukup dengan semua. Saya cuma mau dia. Orang yang saya liat dengan mata saya sendiri bulan Maret lalu. Harus gimana saya jelasinnya? Tuhan.. kenapa saya harus berkali-kali ngerasain jadi bagian yang dipandang salah? Saya terlalu sayang, saya terlalu takut kehilangan, tapi saya terlalu lemah buat bilang kalo saya slalu butuh dan ga mau dya pergi. Saya gagal lagi!